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sometimes i wonder... if one day doctor tells me that i contracted some terminal illness like cancer or wad shit and left with only few months to live.. i don't think i will be surprised or cry or be sad or shed a single drop of tear.. i think i will just put on a fake smile and continue to live my remaining life as usual...

after i die.. the earth continues to spin 365days as usual.. sun continues to rise from the east and set in the west.. the only change is that there is only 1 less human being on earth.. yes i am that insignificant..

lol... emo post..

Anyone knows what is the maths equation for the above graph? y=sin(t)+cos(t)...?? i wish it was that simple but its definitely much more complicated than that...

what more can i do but stab myself repeatedly with an imaginary knife???...

I became a dad?

I was on my way home after a fren's birthday party.. I wore a purple shirt and was wearing my black spectacles as usual.. While walking past this bus stop, this small girl was pointing at me and asking her mum, "mummy, is that daddy? the one wearing purple shirt and a black specs?" !!! haha.. i was looking at the girl with a "wtf look".. i don't think i've "planted my seeds" to deserve a child like her!!

Anyway, let me analyse what the girl had just said.. If im not wrong, the girl was brought up single-handedly by her mum and has never seen her dad before.. that explains why she mistook me as her dad.. she must be searching for her dad, wonders who is her dad and how her dad looks like.

Clap clap.. i think i am 100% right if not at least 70% right.. i think i can be a psychologist next time.. haa..

"... 爱得不对，就会变成恨 ..."

“爱与恨是一对难兄难弟，几乎形影不离。爱得不对，就会变成恨。。。”Almost been a long time since i touched chinese.. but glad i managed to type out this sentence without much effort... In english it means.. "Love and hate are like close brothers, almost inseparable. Love incorrectly and it becomes hate..".. hopefully i translated correctly. Saw this quote on a newspaper and somehow it triggered many thoughts in me.. many hongkong dramas i've watched so far also seemed to portray this scenario..

such depiction came about because in REALITY.. it IS so.. i guess this does not apply to just BGF but also towards friends, families, relatives etc.. humans are such weird emotional creatures.. if one cant get his beloved, hatred soon takes over completely and automatically.. eg.1.. small kids who are siblings/friends fighting over 1 toy therefore they hate each other.. eg.2.. boy likes girl but girl dont likes boy therefore boy hates girl... haha.

.. am i like this too? hmm.. i guess i definitely am.. =X.. hah.. oh well.. im a human too!

.. wanted to write much more but finding it quite hard to express what i really want to express in words so i shall stop here.. hmm.. well.. well.. trying.. trying..

anyway this blog is supposed to be an avenue to improve my language and also to express myself better... yup =D

P.S: Nice song for the week: Kesha - Tik Tok

MY HAND !!!

This hand belongs to me!!.. Saw the slimy thingy near my thumb? Guess wad it is... *drumroll.... YES.. its SALIVA!! Its the liquid found in the mouth!!! OMG... some crazy "guy" spat on my palm.. haha... Its super disgusting, super slimy, super viscous with Re>2300 and super uber smelly la.. if im not wrong... its made from the world's 10 most stinky items mixed together for 7x7=49 days for it to stink so so so much much... Now my hand got this funny odour i cant get rid of..

Anybody with saliva made from the world's 10 most sweet-smelling items mixed together for 7x7=49 days please spit on my palm.. to help me neutralise the "poison"... thanks..

P.S: Saliva "donated" by sunleng.

2010 resolution

A brand new year.. a brand new day.. a brand new decade.. hopefully 2010 will be a better year for me and everyone else.. Would like to apologise to whomever i've knowingly/unknowingly/willingly/unwillingly offended.

My 2010 resolutions:
- find someone to care for me and for me to care for.
- continue to do well for next 2 semesters.
- become fit and tan
- family healthy
- live to see 2011
- singapore for singaporeans!
- world peace

Cheers.. =D

Farewell

Just sent my fren off at airport.. he is going to a far far far away place where i think in my lifetime i wun haf a chance to even step foot there... he will be in this ang moh country known as finland for 6months!!.. hmm... i wonder wad was on his mind when he entered the departure gate.. was he scared? excited? sad?... haha... if i was him... i think i will be kinda scared.. all alone at an unknown country where i dono wad awaits me.. its really all about independent man.. but then again.. i would wanna give it a try at this independent thingy if i have the chance while im still alive and breathing... hmm.. haha..

anyway.. hereby wishing him all the best to becoming a finnish!!

P.S: The dark choc from airport's candy empire is really really great!!..haha

Thoughts for the Night

Definitions of below words taken from dictionary.com...

1. Selfish/Self-Centered/Stingy - devoted to or caring ONLY for ONESELF; concerned primarily with one's own interests, benefits, welfare etc., regardless of others.

2. Lazy - averse or disinclined to work.

3. Irresponsible - said, done or characterised by a lack of a sense of responsibility.

Can u imagine a person who possessed all these "qualities"? not just once or twice but ALWAYS.. Its almost as if the world revolves around the person and as if every single person owes this person a living.. Besides the above mentioned.. this person is always right, doesnt feel remorseful even at fault and doesnt care about the feelings of another person, taking people for granted, just like how accurately defined above.. ONLY for ONESELF!!.. I've been quite patient already, quiet and tried to be understanding.. gosh... but there's really a limit to one's tolerance/patience..

Then again.. no one is ever perfect INCLUDING myself..

P.S : Sorry Mr Blog for absorbing my ranting thoughts!